these mommy moments

Yesterday was a quiet day for me.. it was my day off from work, and I had planned to do some chores  and experiment on cooking again. Kaso, I had been suffering from colds since Tuesday and I didn’t feel too well. Monmon arrived from work around 7 am and found me still sleeping. He slept and I felt too tired to get up, so I decided to sleep some more. I woke up around 11 na, went down to grab something to eat (inuudyok na ko ng bebi sa chan ko na kumain). Normally, I eat rice for breakfast, especially when it’s my rest day and there’s food ready to eat or cook. Yesterday though, I only ate a piece of bread and drank mango juice. I felt so bad I didn’t want to eat much. I turned on the tv and laptop and sat on the rug, contemplating on what to do first – do the laundry or go to market. Since I didn’t have the energy for any of them, I just decided I’ll read some stuff on the net. I went to my devotional site and read some articles. When I started my daily talk with God, I held my tummy and talked to the little one and said our prayers. I first said sorry I didn’t have the energy to eat. I proceeded with my usual thanksgiving and then I felt the tears starting to come. They weren’t tears of joy or sorrow, they were tears of awe. I felt so overwhelmed that I was carrying life inside of me; and remembered how all my life I’ve wanted a baby of my own and finally, in a few months that wish would become a reality. Nakaka-overwhelm lang. 

And so I just sat there, silently weeping and thanking God for the blessing of a baby. I wept and held my tummy and wished the little one could feel me. I sat like that for maybe two hours, and that’s when Mon came down. He noticed the tiny puddles on the floor and I just said sipon ko yon :p Hahaha. 

My moment with the little one didn’t end there. Since Mon had work at 10 pm, I was left alone again that night. But not before we’ve cooked our first real meal – ginisang munggo and pritong isda – that we’ve been craving for since that morning. Mon went to the market while I slept some more in the afternoon, as I felt too tired to stay up. After cooking and eating dinner, I watched some more and surfed the net some more. When bedtime came, I settled down with a prayer, all the time holding my tummy again, in an effort to include the little one in my communion with God. Imagine my surprise when, all of a sudden I thought I felt something move against my hands. It was a tiny movement, but i felt it all right. I wanted to be sure, so I coaxed the little one to move some more. Sure enough, the movements came in tiny bits – a little push here, a little kick there. Ang cute! I felt so kilig I started to laugh. I messaged Mon on the phone right away. Alam kong maiinggit sha hihi. I lay there for maybe 30 minutes just savoring the moment, feeling the tiny movements in my tummy. I kept talking to the little one and the movements would let me know I was heard.

I had to ask bebe to stop playing and settle down for the night since mommy had work pa early in the morning. We slept a little past midnight, me with a smile on my face and my hands still on my tummy. 

misis diaries

Okay, so I'm at home and scheduled to do some chores:

- do the laundry (which I've been doing bit by bit to avoid stress)

- try cooking something edible (unless sister arrives and does it for me :p)

- clean the house

- dispose of the garbage

So far, I have succeeded in doing the following:

- made babad the clothes for washing

- cooked my breakfast

Yun pa lang ang nagagawa ko at pagod na agad ako. Hehe. So now I'm killing time watching Showtime and surfing on FB and multiply. 

I'm quite content to just stay home and do a little cleaning here and there, and I'm very happy at least that I got the bathroom tiles sparkling white again. Salamat sa tinuro ni Mader I didn't have to tire myself out brushing the grime away. Konting spray lang, malinis na sila :D

The laundry is what I love to do. Everyday I find myself washing something. Kahit na konti lang, I hand-wash them para lang mawala na ang sumpa ng ga-bundok na labada ko. But of course I take care not to do too much or else bebe might react violently at bawal na naman ako kumilos.

Bottomline is, I enjoy being a stay-at-home wife. But I know I still need the income I get from my job, so I'll be patient and wait for the baby to come, and then I'll quit working. For the meantime I'm looking at opportunities to work from home na, and hopefully Odesk will  be the answer to my prayers.

Dear diary, this is all for today. I'll go back to you when I'm having problems with budgeting, okay?

Love,

Mrs. Lagula