Friday, November 19, 2010

these mommy moments

Yesterday was a quiet day for me.. it was my day off from work, and I had planned to do some chores  and experiment on cooking again. Kaso, I had been suffering from colds since Tuesday and I didn’t feel too well. Monmon arrived from work around 7 am and found me still sleeping. He slept and I felt too tired to get up, so I decided to sleep some more. I woke up around 11 na, went down to grab something to eat (inuudyok na ko ng bebi sa chan ko na kumain). Normally, I eat rice for breakfast, especially when it’s my rest day and there’s food ready to eat or cook. Yesterday though, I only ate a piece of bread and drank mango juice. I felt so bad I didn’t want to eat much. I turned on the tv and laptop and sat on the rug, contemplating on what to do first – do the laundry or go to market. Since I didn’t have the energy for any of them, I just decided I’ll read some stuff on the net. I went to my devotional site and read some articles. When I started my daily talk with God, I held my tummy and talked to the little one and said our prayers. I first said sorry I didn’t have the energy to eat. I proceeded with my usual thanksgiving and then I felt the tears starting to come. They weren’t tears of joy or sorrow, they were tears of awe. I felt so overwhelmed that I was carrying life inside of me; and remembered how all my life I’ve wanted a baby of my own and finally, in a few months that wish would become a reality. Nakaka-overwhelm lang. 

And so I just sat there, silently weeping and thanking God for the blessing of a baby. I wept and held my tummy and wished the little one could feel me. I sat like that for maybe two hours, and that’s when Mon came down. He noticed the tiny puddles on the floor and I just said sipon ko yon :p Hahaha. 

My moment with the little one didn’t end there. Since Mon had work at 10 pm, I was left alone again that night. But not before we’ve cooked our first real meal – ginisang munggo and pritong isda – that we’ve been craving for since that morning. Mon went to the market while I slept some more in the afternoon, as I felt too tired to stay up. After cooking and eating dinner, I watched some more and surfed the net some more. When bedtime came, I settled down with a prayer, all the time holding my tummy again, in an effort to include the little one in my communion with God. Imagine my surprise when, all of a sudden I thought I felt something move against my hands. It was a tiny movement, but i felt it all right. I wanted to be sure, so I coaxed the little one to move some more. Sure enough, the movements came in tiny bits – a little push here, a little kick there. Ang cute! I felt so kilig I started to laugh. I messaged Mon on the phone right away. Alam kong maiinggit sha hihi. I lay there for maybe 30 minutes just savoring the moment, feeling the tiny movements in my tummy. I kept talking to the little one and the movements would let me know I was heard.

I had to ask bebe to stop playing and settle down for the night since mommy had work pa early in the morning. We slept a little past midnight, me with a smile on my face and my hands still on my tummy. 

15 comments:

  1. nakakatuwa namang basahin ito. keep writing your stories, mards. =O)>

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  2. teh, antay ka mga 4 more weeks, pag ang sipa pababa, ihi and resulta. bumili ka ng maraming toilet paper. Last night I peed 3 times in 15 mins. :)

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  3. uu, inggit ako! bawal matulog mamaya hanggang di gumagalaw ulit ambebe! hahaha!

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  4. awwww ang kyut naman.

    Sana magparamdam din sya sa mga ninang hihihihihi.

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  5. Oo nga, sana sumipa sha pag kasama mo kami. hihi. :)

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  6. salamat pards :)

    pag di ako tinamaan ng katam try ko pang i-chronicle mga pangyayari sa buhay ni momay ( or moymoy :P)

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  7. ngayon pa nga lang laman na ko ng banyo ateng, haha. mukang kelangan ko nang magtayo ng banyo sa kwarto sa susunod na mga buwan ah :p

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  8. churi naman ayaw niya paramdam sayo, pagod na ambebe kagabi :p

    hintay ka pa daw ng isang buwan. hehe.

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  9. yoyce parang hindi pa sha mararamdaman ng iba. kasi kagabi antay nang antay si mon ng paramdam pero wala shang maramdaman. parang ako pa lang makakaramdam sa kanya from the inside. although akala ko naramdaman ko sha sa kamay ko, pero wala e, si mon alang maramdaman na galaw kagabi :p

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  10. hintay pa tayo ng 4 weeks, papakitang-gilas na sha for sure. :D

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  11. Parang nakakaloka siguro na may gumagalaw sa tiyan. Hahaha! Yung tita ko dati pinahawakan din samen yung tiyan niya nung gumagalaw ang baby. Nakakatakot siya. Hahaha! Parang feeling ko may mumu talaga kasi diba, nasa loob siya ng tiyan tapos ayun, galaw ng galaw. Waaaah! Pakisabi kay Momay sa susunod, mag-break dance siya. Hehehe.

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  12. medyo nakaka-freak out nga pag gumagalaw sha sa loob ko. feeling ko mame-Mayor ako pag gumagalaw sha. hahaha.

    parang gusto ko na nga tuloy magpa-ultrasound para makita ko shang nagbe-breakdance sa loob ko. hihi. baka next month ;)

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  13. Mars sna pguwi ko nxt month iwelcome ako ng bebe ng isang sipa haha

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  14. kakilig nman si bebe hihihihii. stay healthy mommy mei!

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  15. Nakakakiliti yun diba? tapos parang ayaw mong huminga kasi ninanamnam mo ung moment hahah.... tinitickle kapalang nyan, ako nga nag ja-jumping rope everyday ung baby sa than ko. nabibigla ako masakit na nakakakiliti. Enjoy the moment ika nga. Dahil pag labas nyan, gaya ni Carl ngaun, totoong sipa at boxing na ang hinahambalos. hahaha

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